Influence...

Influence… we all have it…

Google defined the word as the capacity to have an effect on the character, development, or behavior of someone or something.

We all do influence, one way or the other.

We gals certainly have influence. And we are not always wise in the ways we use it. There has always been a potential influence both for and against truth. Since the garden. Eve used hers and look at the mess we are in….

Women tend to be more impulsive, more emotional, and often quick to ‘do’ something…even if it’s the wrong thing. “Look at this fruit Adam…doesn’t it look delicious?”

I am again brought to my knees before God, examining my female self….confessing and repenting of using my influence in wrong ways. Think about how the women in the following passage misused their influence…..

“The word of the Lord spread through the whole region. But the Jews incited the God-fearing women of high standing and the leading men of the city. They stirred up persecution against Paul and Barnabas, and expelled them from their region. (Acts 13:49,50)

They got the Apostles thrown out of the city. The very men with the message of salvation!

Have you ever stirred up a little stink? Used your words to cause strife or conflict? Spoke to someone you know who has more authority……to sway your own agenda?

Certainly using our influence is not always wrong. I believe we are taught to use it….to make disciples, to encourage, to cause others to want the peace and joy that we have in Jesus Christ.

But certainly we CAN influence in many areas that we need to purpose in our hearts and minds to NOT exercise influence.

My husband can write you a speeding ticket. You might think I can get you out of it….and I might could do that. If I chose.

But would speaking to him about releasing you from the penalty for your wrong doing be using my influence in the right way?

Let me just say this….don’t ask me. Cause I will say no. He does his job fairly, and my influencing him otherwise would equal to my doing his job instead of him. And I am not qualified to perform his job.

And God forbid I ever get in the way of God's message being delivered to another person.

Rich...

Rich… Are you ?

I had a conversation recently about how it is you put someone in the category of being ‘rich’.

Immediately, the American mind goes to $$$$ doesn’t it?

Money can sure makes life easier… in some ways.

It gets us things, pays for other people to do things for us. It enables us to have bigger and better. It makes it possible to go places, to play, to see the world.

But money is only a tool. And like all tools, it can make a job easier, it can be used properly, and used well.

Or not.

I am rich.

I have more food than I eat. I have more clothes than I wear. I have more rooms than I occupy. I have money enough with some to spare, and a savings account.

I am convicted tonight about how I use what I have. I personally know people who have to struggle to buy groceries. I know people who have to deny themselves in order to provide for the children in their care.

On my refrigerator, there are pictures of two children who benefit from a mere pittance of my money each month. I only give up what would buy a new blouse or a trip out to eat, and they are provided with food that is not available, clean water, clothing, and a chance at an education that we would consider primitive.

And I am convicted tonight that I somehow consider that I’ve done enough. I take the rest of what I have and spend it on whatever whim I have at the moment. After all, I work hard… right?

I think of Jesus’ words….

“…..it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God." (Matt. 19:23,24)

It is not money that causes the difficulty. It is the fact that we choose it over following Jesus. And that is the most costly thing we could ever do.

Personal....

Personal…. ‘of or relating to a particular person, carried on between individuals..’
Personally… ‘as far as oneself is concerned..’


We have personal belongings. Personal thoughts. Personal information.


“Don’t take it personally, but….”
“Personally, I think…..”

There are personal questions. Jesus asks one….

"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?" (Matt. 16:15, Mark 8:29, Luke 9:20)

The world dances around trying so hard not to offend anybody. Each of us have personal choices and decisions. We are not obligated or forced to choose Jesus Christ. But He IS the Savior. There will be no other deliverance from the predicament we are in. We are NOT holy. We can not fix that. And we will not enter God’s Presence without being cleansed and made holy.

People have their empty religions, meaningless rituals. They are not wicked really….but certainly ungodly. The gods they serve are not holy. Their god is not God, The Father of Jesus Christ.

Yet we are conditioned to hold back in fear of offending them. Perhaps we hold back because we are not confident in our own convictions.


“Then the disciples came to him and asked, "Do you know that the Pharisees were offended when they heard this?" He replied, "Every plant that my heavenly Father has not planted will be pulled up by the roots.Leave them; they are blind guides. If a blind man leads a blind man, both will fall into a pit." (Matt. 15:12-14)

Perhaps the enemy has convinced us that we are incapable of effectively communicating the message to another person. (….the indwelling Holy Spirit will empower us to do that, but we must learn to hear and we must act when we do hear..)


“I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.

And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine……..

….according to His power that is at work within us,

..to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”(Eph. 3:16-21)

Sway...

Sway... Something fixed at one end moving back and forth at the other...

Sometimes we can sway pretty good, sometimes not...

Perhaps it has to do with how well we are grounded, what we are grounded to...


"....having been firmly rooted and now being built up in Him and established in your faith, just as you were instructed, and overflowing with gratitude." (Colossians 2:7 NASB)

I've watched in amazement as tall pine trees.... trees that must weigh hundreds and hundreds of pounds, reaching high toward the heavens... sway under the power of an invisible wind.

How can they stand so tall and straight up, much less sway back and forth like they do, yet remain standing?

They have strong roots and a body flexible enough to bend with the winds.

Winds do come that are more than they can endure without breaking. They do get damaged, twisted, broken off, even uprooted...When the storms come.


Often I want to be rigid and unbending. Sometimes I seem to forget where my roots reach to and forget to be grateful for the firm solid soil under me.

I want to be like those pines....ever green, standing tall and straight, yet flexible..remaining firmly rooted.

At least I want to want to...

Batons....

Baton… I never could twirl one of those things, hit my elbow every time…

My little sister could twirl it. I’ve watched amazing performances over the years where girls could keep two of them spinning like crazy, throwing them up in the air. I even saw fire on the ends of a twirling baton in one performance.

Runners use batons. They have to ‘pass the baton’ to the next runner. Doesn’t matter how soon you get to the finish line if you failed to catch that handed off baton.

Looking at a scene revealed to us in Acts 6, I see a baton being passed off, and several batons being twirled at the same time.

“During this time, as the disciples were increasing in numbers by leaps and bounds, hard feelings developed among the Greek-speaking believers--"Hellenists"--toward the Hebrew-speaking believers because their widows were being discriminated against in the daily food lines. So the Twelve called a meeting of the disciples. They said, "It wouldn't be right for us to abandon our responsibilities for preaching and teaching the Word of God to help with the care of the poor. So, friends, choose seven men from among you whom everyone trusts, men full of the Holy Spirit and good sense, and we'll assign them this task. Meanwhile, we'll stick to our assigned tasks of prayer and speaking God's Word." The congregation thought this was a great idea. They went ahead and chose…..” (Acts 6:1-5 The Message)

I’m a pretty good multi-tasker. (…less so the older I get !! ) These Twelve apostles were definitely multi-tasking.

Testifying about the risen Jesus, performing signs and miracles to validate the power of the Holy Spirit, praying and ministering the Word of God, explaining the scripture and revealing the fulfilled prophecy within them…..and meeting physical needs of women who had no husband. Social work…

Seems they weren’t much different then us. How often I have complained to the minister that somebody wasn’t being cared for just right. Or complained about him because he didn’t do what I thought he should..

How many times have I complained that the preacher didn’t visit, the church didn’t bring food or send flowers… Why is it we think that is always somebody else’s job? Why is it we think we are off the hook because there is somebody on a payroll to do all that? Maybe it’s just me that’s guilty of that….

In this situation of the early church, there were some cultural things we just can’t appreciate. I am a woman, and though I’ve never been a widow, I don’t fear being without resources to feed and care for myself.

In this situation of the early church, the leading characters were doing the grunt work along with being on stage and in all the speaking engagements. Am I as willing as they to not just do the works that I have a passion for, but also be willing to roll up my sleeves and do the behind the scenes stuff? The dirty work? The stuff that’s not fun?

In this situation of the early church, when the baton was held out to be passed on, there were those willing to grab it and run with it. Am I as willing to accept a baton held out to me? Do I accept that responsibility without ill-will? Do I do everything I can to free others to move on to greater responsibility?

I admit it, it is sometimes hard for me to let go of that baton, hard to pass off to somebody else. After all, they might not do it ‘right’….they might do it differently than I do !! Gasp !!

I confess it, I often hesitate to accept a baton handed out to me. “Well, that’s just not my gift….”

Nonsense… I doubt Jesus thinks much of that excuse. Especially when there is a need and I’m an able body.

And I confess, I’m guilty….guilty of thinking the money I put in that plate on Sunday pays somebody to do stuff I could participate in myself. I have plenty excuses. I work. I don’t have time. I’m just not good at that. I don’t know those people. Those people don’t know me. I have dozens…

Course….I might be the only one.

But I doubt it.

Love is....

Love… I ran across a list of quotes about love. Reading them made me wonder how differently we define love....just what does it means to love, what does it look like to be loved.... What do you say?

I think lots of us have some very skewed perceptions about love. Some of the quotes I can’t agree with, some of them don’t measure up with the teaching of Jesus.

“God IS love.” (1John 4:16 emphasis mine)

He invented the whole concept, it defines Him…and He gets to define what love is, not me

Or you.

One of the quotes I read is : “Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”

Interesting quote to think about.

How does the happiness of another person effect me? What person’s happiness matters to me?

Jesus said we are to love God first and foremost. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' …..”

And He said we are to “Love your neighbor as yourself.'…” (Mark 12:30-31)

Loving other people is second only to loving God. I’d say that’s a pretty important matter to consider.

“ There is no commandment greater than these." (Mark 12:31)

I tried hard to love a god I didn’t really know. I knew facts of history, not character and nature.

I was afraid of Him, knew I was supposed to love Him but didn’t find Him very loveable. Nor did I grasp His love for me. I didn’t know it, and certainly didn’t live in it.

All the dissatisfaction within me was a symptom of my need to know and live in His love. God loves us with a love we can not fathom, nor can we duplicate it. Man was created to live in His love…we are never complete and happy any other way.

His capacity to love is beyond human capacity, but He DOES enable us to love beyond our nature.

His love is essential to my happiness.
Loving Him is essential to my happiness.

If you don’t love Him, you wonder that you don’t know really Him.


Find Him today. He is so good.

Names...

Name… Everybody gets one at birth. For us gals, most of us get a name change when we marry. Some folks get a name for themselves…whether a name for good or not so good…

In my religious heritage, the name of the church was an important issue. I mean the name that is on the sign out front. I have heard lots of sermons about names. I have come to understand that the only name that is important in that regard is the Name of Jesus the Christ. But, some folks are convinced otherwise, so whatever….

When we named our children, we considered lots of options. But we never thought past the sound of the name. Frequently, we didn’t like a name because it reminded us of someone else.

In scripture, names were very important, and had lots of meaning. They were words…they communicated something. Often, they indicated something to come to pass about the child….prophetic.

Hanna named her son Shmuel, in English spelled Samuel. It comes from the two Hebrew words ‘shama’ meaning to hear, and ‘el’ meaning almighty, which referred to diety. Samuel means heard of God. Hanna had no children, prayed fervently for a child, and she heard from God an answer to her prayer, conceived and bore a son. (1 Samuel 1:20)

Jesus, Jehovah saves. Immanuel, God with us.

Eve, Noah, Moses….I could write dozens of examples like this.

Have we lost something in the way we name our children? Maybe, maybe not….

When our youngest grand-daughter was to be born, the name was discussed almost every day. I can’t explain to you the why of it, but I knew her name. Her name was Caroline. I finally gave my suggestion, and eventually announced to my precious children that I would be calling this unborn child Caroline until I was told differently and informed of the name she would be given.

I looked the name up one day, and upon reading what the name means, was even more convinced that Caroline was indeed her name…… she was a ‘bringer of joy’.

And indeed she was and is.

Connie…. ?

“constant; steadfast”

Quote 13...

Quote 13… “Mama always had a way of explaining things so I could understand them.” …

Communication is vital isn’t it? You can lecture for hours, read a zillion words, write a zillion more…But unless the thoughts are conveyed, you’ve just wasted time, energy, and ink. (…or in my case, memory on a computer.)
Sometimes, I get an attitude and mindset that I need to be right about every single thing, as well as make sure you are correct too. Sometimes, I skip right over the message, and focus on the method.

I’m sure I’m the only one guilty….

Don’t misunderstand me. Being correct is of the utmost importance, but sometimes I correct form, when form doesn’t make a bit of difference.

Mama talks baby talk so baby can understand. THAT is the important thing. Understanding. And baby talk is far from correct grammar !

I’ve heard folks argue over which translation of written scripture to use, as if Jesus used one of them. (He did use one, and I understand it was Hebrew….I don’t understand Hebrew much better than I understand the original KJV.)

Translations line the shelves of bookstores now. There are groups of scholars from all over the globe who regularly gather to examine the old documents and manuscripts. They study the language of the era, and they consider how words were used in all sorts of literature of that day.

They consider what words we use today, and how we use them. Which, by the way, changes from generation to generation. Big time.

Scholars’ goal is to take the message in that old manuscript, written to that ancient world, a document that used their language and their words, and then communicate the message of it to our world today, using our language and our words.

I bet the people of other foreign languages don’t have this axe to grind….I’m pretty sure there’s not a lot of Bibles written in Chinese. Certainly not the King James Version ! And I’m glad I don’t have to read either of them. But I am thrilled that the Chinese can read and understand what was once only written in Hebrew or Greek.

It is certainly a good thing to be educated in the correct use and form or words. It’s a far better thing to be able to use all of them to effectively transfer a thought from one mind and heart to another.

We are told to “ …grow in the grace and knowledge…”(2Peter 3:18)

I wonder if some of us don’t need some refresher courses in grace. Are we impressed with our knowledge and the other person’s lack of it ?

Might we need to heed the words of Paul…. Certainly I do.

“ Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up…” (2 Cor. 8:1)

It is the message that is important. Not the method, not the pronunciation, not the spelling, not the punctuation, not the grammer.

Father, may our desire be to grow in grace and not simply knowledge. May our knowledge be only a tool to help us build others up and communicate the message of Jesus Christ.

Quotes 12....

Quotes 12.…“A place where there isn't any trouble. Do you suppose there is such a place, Toto? There must be. It's not a place you can get to by a boat or a train. It's far, far away. Behind the moon, beyond the rain…”

Have you ever been in such a place? Ever longed for such a place?

I tried for years to make such a place. Didn’t happen.

There is a such a place though. And it is indeed beyond the moon, beyond the rainbow… somewhere.

I find my mind going to the old hymns….

“Peace, perfect peace, in this dark world of sin? The blood of Jesus whispers peace within….”

“When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul.”

“The winds and the waves shall obey Thy will, peace be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea, or demons, or men, or whatever it be.
No water can swallow the ship where lies, the Master of ocean and earth and skies;
they shall sweetly obey Thy will, peace be still, peace be still.”

I do long for a place where there is no trouble. No global trouble, national or international… political, cultural….personal.

I have known people who lived in circumstances that looked so distressing…like there was not a moment of peace. Yet, they exhibited joy.

How often I have said ‘I don’t know how you do it…’.

“Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow, blessings all mine, with then thousand, ten thousand beside….” Great is His faithfulness.

There is peace for our now and for all of eternity for those who have The Holy Spirit of God dwelling within.


We all have eternity in our hearts. Will your eternity be one of peace?

No need to search for peace over the rainbow, no need to try to orchestrate it for yourself, you can’t.

Jesus Christ says “I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with Me”

He is waiting. Let Him in….“and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds…” (Phillipians 4:7)

Quotes 11....

Quotes 11.…. “….you are under the unfortunate impression that just because you run away you have no courage; you’re confusing courage with wisdom.”


The speaker of that quote was not at all what he pretended to be. He hid behind curtains, used bells and whistles of all sorts to make himself appear to be THE grand, all knowing, and all powerful one. Some wizard he was….

He was pretty ordinary….pity he didn’t apply his words of wisdom to his own life and come out from hiding behind that curtain sooner…. It takes courage to step out of hiding and be real.


We have an enemy who is a liar and a deceiver of the brethren ( John 8:44, Rev.12:10, Rev. 13:14, Gen. 3:13) He prefers to keep us in pretense.

One of the enemy’s most effective weapons against most of us is fear. Satan deceives us, we choose to believe him over believing God, we find the truth out for ourselves by experience, then instead of running TO God, we hide behind our own curtain, displaying our own bells and whistles…those of denial, pretense, and excuse.

We too are often under the unfortunate impression that running and hiding means we are weak and cowardly. A usual tactic of the enemy...take a little truth and twist it....

Hiding our sin from God IS cowardly. And futile.

“Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.” (Hebrews 4:13)

Hiding our sin from ourselves is not only cowardly but catastrophically unwise.

It does takes courage to evaluate ourselves in the Light of the holiness of God because we …“all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”(Romans 3:23)

I am convinced that only when we KNOW the love of God can we come out of hiding.

Only when we have the Presence of Jesus Christ by the power of the indwelling Holy Spirit, can we see ourselves both as we are, (sinful to the core….), as well as loved by our Creator God beyond human capacity and beyond human understanding.

Don’t confuse courage with wisdom, nor fear and hiding with safety.

There is only one safe place to hide. ….“hidden with Christ in God”(Col. 3:3) “We have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body..” (Hebrews. 10:18-20)

Quote 10....

Quote 10.… “Houston we have a problem.”…….

Houston, LA, Seattle, New York, Miami…Hong Kong, London, Cairo…

New Boston, Foreman, DeKalb, Simms…

Every person in every city….we all have a problem.

“You know the story of how Adam landed us in the dilemma we're in…”(Romans 5:12 The Message)

Our problem is that we can not be perfect. No matter how bad we want to, no matter how hard we try.

"…….What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise.

So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary. But I need something more!

For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help!

I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it.

I decide to do good, but I don't really do it;

I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway.

My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions.

Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. It happens so regularly that it's predictable. (Romans 7:14-21 The Message)

The apostle Paul had the problem, we all share it. And Houston can’t fix it….

So what to do?

“Who will save me from this sin that brings death to my body? I give thanks to God. He will do it through Jesus Christ our Lord…”(Romans 7:24-25)

“With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved.”(Romans 8:1 The Message)


Hallelujah.

Quote 9....

Quote 9... “What we’ve got here is a failure to communicate.”……

Paul Newman’s portrayal of a cool handed Luke demonstrated that Luke communicated quite well. He chose his own way, regardless of the personal cost.

Over and over he breaks the rules and pays the price for it… being imprisoned.

Over and over he challenges that prison. He managed to escape it, but it was a short-lived freedom…he would only be re-shackled, bound heavier and tighter.

At one point, after an escape, he finds himself in a church building and speaks to God, accusing Him, “You made me like I am.”

Our shortcomings are not God’s fault. He only allows us the freedom to choose poorly.


Luke’s communication was one sided. He communicated his will, but failed to understand the communication from the other side of that church house ceiling.

He insisted on his own way, refused to accept the consequences of his choices, and challenged the wrong in others while accepting, even excusing the faults in himself.

When caught up with yet again, he found himself with no way to escape. “…all you’ve got to do is give up.”, his friend told him.



I don’t claim complete understanding. I don’t claim to be able to communicate perfectly.

But how very thankful I am that my Lord’s message makes sense to me.

I am so grateful to understand what He has gone to such great length and cost to communicate to us.

I continue to learn to communicate…..in both hearing and listening to Him. I continue to learn to communicate with Him in prayer, doing my best to bring an open and honest heart, even though at times, it is not at all cool.

In fact, it’s pretty ugly sometimes…..

Quote 8....

Quote 8.… “I’ll be back….” I bet you read that with a certain accent.



The two looked human, but were not.

The two had different missions. To kill. To save.

When the character uttered the line in the movie, he usually came back in some vehicle, crashing thru walls or windows.

He demolished whatever was in the way of his mission….saving a young woman’s life.

As the movie progresses, she goes from not trusting him at all, to complete trust and following his direction.

Jesus was human, yet was not. He is unique in that….completely both. Completely human. Completely divine.

He too had a mission, and He has a foe that counters that mission, trying to thwart it in any way he can.

The enemy? “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy…”

The Savior has “…come so they can have life….in the fullest possible way.” (John 10:10)

And He WILL be back.



“I will come back. And I will take you to be with Me. Then you will also be where I am.” (John 14:3)

Quotes 7....

Quote 7... “May the force be with you.”……..

I didn’t think much about that line back way back when…and I really don’t know now just what that meant.

But, it’s a line that most people recognize.

It is something found in most all my prayers of intercession.

It was something that Paul prayed in many of his letters. I consider those prayers to be prayers for ME.



“May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus….equip you with everything good for doing His will, and may He work in us what is pleasing to Him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.” (Hebrews 13:20-21)


“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” (Romans 15:13)


“May the Lord be with your spirit. May God's grace be with you.”( 2 Tim. 4:22)

The force IS with me. Just as was promised to those early Christians, the power and Presence of Jesus Christ thru the Holy Spirit of God is with me.


“But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you. Then you will be My witnesses in Jerusalem. You will be My witnesses in all Judea and Samaria. And you will be My witnesses from one end of the earth to the other." (Acts 1:8)

Is The Force with you?

There is no reason to live a defeated life, no reason to not have peace even in a storm of life.

If He is not with you, you can not know what you are missing….

Find out today. He is so good. He wants ONLY good, even better and best, for all of His creation. He WANTS to be with you. The God of the universe WANTS to be with and in you!

“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD..”(Jer. 29:11-14)

Quote 6...

Quotes 6... “There’s no place like home.”….

The older I get, the more I find that to be true. Home, however, is not where ‘home’ once was. Foreman, Arkansas was ‘home’ for many years. New Boston, Texas is ‘home’ now…Daniels Chapel to be exact.

I still like to go places, but I don’t like to stay as long any more. I like to be at ‘home’.

But even here at ‘home’, there are times when I feel so out of sorts, even out of place. So many times, especially when the struggles come, I get this hard to describe yearning…..

Neither my ‘home’ nor my life is perfect. No part of it. But I know there IS a ‘home’ that is perfect.

I am not speaking about dissatisfaction..I’m not talking about wanting something I don’t have, or not having every need met, Paul lived it out, and said it very well…

“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” (Phil. 4:11-13)

Thank You Lord for Paul and for the recorded words he penned.

You see, God “ has also set eternity in the hearts of men..” (Ecc. 3:11)

This place will never fully meet the ache inside. Nor will there ever be ‘enough’ to satisfy. There will always be a bigger house, another toy, the latest gadget.

They will come out with a better car, a new design label.

They will build a new tourist spot and a more luxurious way to get there.

A secret of living life in this body of flesh is finding contentment and purpose exactly where you are.

….‘cause there’s no place like home…

“Sometimes we can hardly wait to move--and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what's coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we're tired of it! We've been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what's ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less.” (2Cor. 5:2-5 The Message)


There IS no place like home, and eternity is in this heart…

Quotes 5....

Quotes 5.…“You’ve no idea how far I’ve come to be with you.”


That quote is from my favorite movie. It’s a story about Elise McKenna and Richard Collier. He traveled time and space to be with her.

Another line I really love… “…come back to me…”

Time had separated them.

Only God is sovereign over time. The movie it fiction. Extreme fiction…

God’s sovereignty is not. God’s sovereignty is truth. Absolute truth.

Do you have any idea how far He came to be with us?

“For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me.” (John 6:38)

Have you heard Him whisper to you, “come back to Me.”?

“….come to me to have life.” (John 5:40)


"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Mt. 11:28-30)

He left the perfection of heaven to rescue me and restore my damaged and broken relationship with my Creator God.

I can’t fathom how far He came and all that He gave up. For me.

And you.

Quotes 4....

Quotes 4... “I hate rude behavior in a man. I won't tolerate it.”….

I forget the details of the scene this was from, but I do remember that the character who said it had his own brand of rude behavior. He tolerated that just fine….

We are all guilty of setting the standard for ‘rude behavior’. We are all guilty of tolerating our own just fine. Maybe it’s just me….but I doubt it.

The standard of behavior is set. Not by you, or me. We have been given a written definition, and we have had it fleshed out to us in Jesus Christ. He is the standard for all human behavior. God Himself is the standard.

You won’t measure up any better than I do, don’t kid yourself.

And He will not tolerate our ‘rude behavior’….our sin will not go without notice nor without punishment.

UNLESS we have One to bear the penalty in our stead.

“For God WILL bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.” (Ecc. 12:14 emphasis mine)

Don’t think you can get away with anything less than the perfection of a holy God. And you have already messed that up….no way around it, no way to go back and un-do it, no way to prevent sin from sticking its ugly head up again today, and tomorrow, and the next day….

Even though God loves everyone of us with a passion beyond our comprehension, He can not, and will not tolerate ‘rude behavior’. He can not and will not allow sin to go without it’s reward.

He didn’t even do it for the angels… “ the angels who did not keep their positions of authority but abandoned their own home—these he has kept in darkness, bound with everlasting chains for judgment on the great Day.” (Jude 1:6) They too will be held to account.


He spoke over and over to His chosen nation of Israel, warning them that He would not forever tolerate their sin and rebellion. “ When the LORD could no longer endure your wicked actions and the detestable things you did, your land became an object of cursing and a desolate waste without inhabitants, as it is today” (Jer. 44:22)

I wonder this morning how much longer He will tolerate….. I wonder that He has not begun to bring discipline on our land.

Quotes 3....

Quotes 3.… “Are we lost, daddy?”…..

That quote is from a children’s book. I read it dozens of times. I don’t remember where it came from, and unfortunately, I don’t know what happened to it. It is out of print, so I’ve given up on having a copy again. As many times as I read it, I should be able to quote every page :)

The story was about a family going on vacation. They drove and drove, the father navigating just on the information he had HEARD about the destination and how to get there.

Soon, they began to see the same sights they had driven past already. They weren’t getting any closer to the vacation spot.

Eventually, they stopped and asked someone along the way. But the information given was incorrect. They ended up making yet another round, ending up no closer than before.

Finally, the father pulled out a map. Duh.

Are we lost? You bet.

Whose information are you basing your journey on?

Who are you asking direction from?

Ever think about pulling out the map? It’s probably laying around somewhere. It has the letters B-I-B-L-E printed on the outside.



“…the Holy Scriptures… are able to teach you how to be saved by believing in Christ Jesus. God has breathed life into all of Scripture.

It is useful for teaching us what is true.

It is useful for correcting our mistakes.

It is useful for making our lives whole again.

It is useful for training us to do what is right.

By using Scripture, a man of God can be completely prepared to do every good thing. (2 Tim. 3:15-17)

Quote 2...

Quotes 2... I continue to think about the common practice of quoting…lyrics, poems, some well known person or author…a line taken from a movie, or just out of an ordinary conversation…

Today I heard from a friend who felt like nobody cared really…unless they wanted something. I think we probably all feel that way from time to time. Used and abused. We can respond by making our heart harder, deciding to not care….or maybe even having a pity party, which I’m usually guilty of.

I was troubled that my friend felt like that today. He knows in his heart of heart that it’s simply not true…but sometimes we just need to hear it from those who do care, from those who have no strings attached to their love for us.

As I thought about it, I remembered a movie I watched once.

One of the scenes portrayed a young man talking to God. He was asking God how he could get someone to love him. He had lost his girlfriend, and had tried roping the moon for her along with all kinds of other tricks and tactics, only to have her refuse him.

“How do you make somebody love you?” the guy asked of God.

“I don’t know…”, answered God.

That is so profound to me.

If God chose to force us to love Him, love would no longer be love would it?

We get to pick…. Love Him, or not love Him. He won’t force us.

“… I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him and he with Me.

To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me in My throne, even as I also overcame and have sat down with My Father in His throne.

He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. (Rev. 3:20-22)

Quotes....

Quotes… It is a common practice these days to use a line from some song, a movie, or some little or well known person…

One of the quotes I often here is ‘How’s this gonna work, if you don’t do what I say…?”

I’ll let you guess where that quote comes from.



My God has a sense of humor. This morning, He says the same thing to me.

"Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and still don't do what I say?” That is quoting the words of Jesus as recorded in Luke 6:46.

Maybe I’m the only one He has to keep saying that to…but I doubt it.

How’s this gonna work, if you don’t do what I say…..

Follow...

Follow… Or would you rather lead, be in front, choose the direction…

I admit it. I like to lead. I like to pick the way to go. And I also admit that if I’m not leading, I’m prone to tell you how to get there too.

“Be careful to follow every command I am giving you today, so that you may live and increase and may enter and possess the land the LORD promised on oath to your ancestors.” (Deut. 8:1)

I fully realize that these words were spoken to a nation of people concerning a literal, geographical piece of property…land. But I believe every word of scripture has a message for every person of every time. This morning, I hear Him saying once again…. ‘…follow Me Connie. Listen and remember what I have said so you can have a fuller and fuller life. Follow Me, don’t get ahead of Me. You will never be able to get there on your own….please, listen to Me, I know what I‘m talking about.”

Sigh…sometimes He just doesn’t go fast enough. Sometimes He picks a road with too many curves and bumps. And I complain and whine.

“Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep His commands.” (verse 2)

So I’ve make another round in the wilderness, learning…and this morning, I want the ‘so that’ of verse 1.

So, I purpose in my heart once again to follow.

Even though it seems to me He is going waaaaay too slow….

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Supplication...

Supplication… Webster says it is an earnest request….

I don’t use the word in conversation, don’t hear anyone else use it really. It is one of those Bible words, a word connected to prayer, directed toward God.

As I complete my reflecting on Psalm 119 this morning, I am challenged about my prayer life…. “Let my supplication come before Thee…” (verse 170) “…Give my request your personal attention.” (v. 170 from The Message)

I regularly present my prayer list to God, and I often find myself giving Him suggestions about how He should fill my needs….or to be truthful, my wants. Selfish, short-sighted, self-centered wants…

While it is certainly true that God is interested in my every need and desire, He sees far beyond my moment, and knows far better than I how to answer and how to fulfill my requests. He has an uncanny way of bringing about what I ask for, but in ways I don’t expect and never see coming.



In this last section of the psalm, I am reminded… He is God. I am not.


“….give me wisdom according to Your Word” (v. 169)
“….deliver me according to Your Word.” (v. 170)
“….You have taught me Your Precepts.” (v. 171)
“….all Your Commandments are righteousness.” (v. 172)
“….I have chosen Your Precepts.” (v. 173)
“….Your Law is my delight.” (v. 174)
“….let Your judgments help me.” (v. 175)

This book we call The Bible is very unique. It is only paper and ink, maybe a leather cover…but the message it communicates is incredible. The more I read and study it, the more I realize how bottomless it’s teaching is. His Word, what He has said….is. Period. The epitome of ‘it is what it is…’. God’s Word IS. It is the source of wisdom, deliverance, right-ness…

And I for one need all that. Desperately.


“I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek Your servant; for I do not forget Your Commandments.” (v. 176)

How thankful I am that He does come looking for me, calling me back close to Him. If you hear Him, whether it is a shout or a whisper…listen for Him. And go to Him. Run to Him.

He is so good.

Shalom....

Shalom… It is a Hebrew word. Most people know it means peace, but what is peace?

Is peace simply absence of conflict or war? What steals peace away, what prevents it from being the norm for us?

People search for it…try all sorts of methods to gain it, trying to chase away the inner conflict and be complete… somehow….ANY how…any way.

The problem is that we can not stand alone against life’s daily pressures for very long. We run into the unfriendly, the unhealthy, the incomplete, the discontent…and it takes our peace.

Oh, we may convince ourselves that we do in fact have peace, that we do not CARE about the unfriendly, unhealthy, incomplete, and discontent…

And maybe you don’t.

But IF you don’t, your peace is diminished whether you admit it or not. You are less than you were created to be if you become calloused to those unfriendly, unhealthy, incomplete……

But knowing the love of God, and living in relationship with HIM, is the single way to true peace. He is the single answer. The enemy will give you some attractive alternatives, fashion some good counterfeits for you, and present some misleading choices that will give you a short lived ‘peace’ that will blow up in your face eventually.

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119,I read the section of verses 161-168 and I find great comfort for my lack of peace this hour….(He's so good,He sends the right Word every time…)

“Great peace have they who love Your law, and nothing can make them stumble.” (Ps. 119: 165)

My peace is not in a perfect life, because I don’t have one.

My peace is not because there is no conflict, there is plenty.

My peace is not because I have no aches and pains, no unfriendly people to deal with, or situations that make me wish for a different one…. I have plenty situations that I’d just as soon not have to deal with. My hands and feet are old, tired, and about worn out. My life does not always unfold as I expected.

But my peace does not depend on any of those things, I have peace because I have a God Who will always act toward the welfare of His children. I serve a God Who defines what it is to be complete.

And He loves me. I am in covenant relationship with Him.

As for me, I’ll just take up the cross and follow…(Mt. 16:24) I will know His peace even in a raging storm.

“But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD." (Joshua 24:15)


I do not comprehend why so many refuse Him….why they refuse to accept the peace and security that is found in living by His design standard.

But I can’t want it bad enough for you…You get to pick.

Affllicted...

Afflicted… Webster says: affected with continued or often repeated pain, either of body or mind ….

My parents and grandparents called people ‘afflicted’ when today we say ‘handicapped’ or ‘special needs’.

Tonight, as I am afflicted with sleeplessness, I got up to continue my reflecting on Psalm 119. I find verse 153...“Look on my affliction, and deliver me..”

I am so thankful God continues to love, continues to care, and continues to listen. Aren’t you? He could stop.

The word in the original language is ‘oniy’. It is defined as a state of oppression or extreme discomfort, physically, mentally, or spiritually. Depression. Misery.


It made me think of the song on Hee Haw from years ago…

“Gloom, despair, and agony on me,
Deep dark depression, excessive misery,
If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all,
Gloom, despair, and agony on me….”

Those hillbilly characters were afflicted. (…and maybe a little lazy. )

When the afflicted cry out to God for deliverance, God hears, and answers. He cares…. “Lord, You have deep concern for me. Keep me alive as You have promised. (v.156)

How well do the afflicted listen for His answer, how well do they follow His instructions as He provides deliverance?

When affliction comes, we can’t sit around with a jug and a gang of buddies, wallowing in self pity.

When affliction comes, it is more important than ever to kneel at The Throne of grace and mercy…It is the ONLY place to find help, true deliverance, and recovery. The only way to remove the deep darkness…

Excessive misery and all….

Insomnia....

Insomnia… Webster says it is a “prolonged and usually abnormal inability to obtain adequate sleep”. Seems like my inability to obtain adequate sleep has become pretty normal….

I remember being chastised for sleeping too much. Still asleep at noon on Saturday, my folks complained loudly, ‘You are sleeping your life away!’

I can’t sleep til midnight sometimes now, much less noon !

So I get up and continue to reflect on the next section of Psalm 119 and look what I find….


“Lord, I call out to You with all my heart. Answer me, and I will obey Your orders.
I call out to You. Save me, and I will keep Your covenant laws.

I get up before the sun rises. I cry out for help. I've put my hope in Your Word.

My eyes stay open all night long. I spend my time thinking about Your promises.

Listen to me, because You love me. Lord, keep me alive as You have promised.
Those who think up evil plans are near. They have wandered far away from Your law.

But Lord, You are near. All Your commands are true.

Long ago I learned from Your covenant laws that You made them to last forever.”
(Psalm 119:145-152)


It brings a smile to my heart that He is so sweet in His perfect timing. He speaks. On time. Every time.

On sleepless nights, my brain bounces back and forth with all the concerns of my life. I discuss it with Him, complain to Him, whine to Him…

And every single time, if I will just go to His Word…..every single time, if I will just shush my spirit and listen….

He speaks.

He is near. All His words are true and eternal.

I must just keep my hope in that Word and focus on His promises….they do indeed last forever.


Now…..let’s get some sleep !!!

Try.....

Try…. Over and over. Again and again.

I get tired of trying. Don’t you?

It is so tempting to just throw down the towel and say ‘forget it’.

Sometimes, I just don’t want to care anymore…just wish I could NOT care.

But I have prayed so many times for God to use me. I have asked Him to help me submit myself to Him, that He could do His work thru me, ministering to others.

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119 I read “ My zeal wears me out, for my enemies ignore your words.” (v. 139)

My zeal. There lies the problem…

It is not about me…. I know this. I have had to re-take this course over and over, again and again. I am not the one who gets a single thing accomplished in another person’s life. Ever.

He asks me to follow. Not navigate or drive….


"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am.

Don't run from suffering; embrace it.

Follow me and I'll show you how.

Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to saving yourself, your true self.

What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?
What could you ever trade your soul for?

"If any of you are embarrassed over me and the way I'm leading you when you get around your fickle and unfocused friends, know that you'll be an even greater embarrassment to the Son of Man when he arrives in all the splendor of God, his Father, with an army of the holy angels.

( The words of Jesus, Mark 8:34-38 The Message)

Lord Jesus, forgive me as I again get out of the driver’s seat.

Entrance...

Entrance… You can’t get ‘in’, without one…

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, this verse draws me.

“The entrance of Your Words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple.” (v. 130)

The truth here is profound.

You don’t have to be a rocket scientist.

All you have to be is sincere. He fills in any deficiency.

I’ve heard people say they can’t understand the Bible, so they don’t read it. I’ve said it myself.

I didn’t understand it because it didn’t say anything I wanted to hear. I didn’t understand it because it clashed with my rationale. I didn’t understand it because it was not logical.

One thing I have learned, and I know that I know this….His Holy Spirit is capable and willing, even eager to teach. He teaches us where we are….super intelligent or simple. We don’t become scholars overnight, we become and remain students of His as long as there is a today.

Another thing I have learned, and I know that I know, God is not bound by my human logic. Or yours.

But when His Words enter our discussions and into our thoughts, when we truly consider what He has said, light bulbs will come on.

The problem with light is that the brighter it shines, the more dust and cobwebs you can see. And when it is God’s Light shining, we see where we don’t measure up, we miss being perfect and holy by a zillion miles…..

And we have a very real enemy poised to pounce and accuse.

Let Him give you light. He provides understanding to a heart that is undivided in its motive.

Read His Word.

And as you do, never forget that every word is overflowing with love for YOU. And every word is meant for your greater good. And mine…

Every word… Even to the point that “The Word became flesh and dwelt among us….” He stepped out of glory for you….into a dying body of flesh, even to the point of a horrible death He loved you…

Let His Word give you light….you may be surprised just how dark it is where you are.

Do something....

Do something… Ever be in some life situation where you feel like somebody just needs to DO something? Waiting is not one of my virtues, I don’t do it easily.

Waiting while a hurricane named Irene crept up the east coast toward where our kids live was not an easy wait. But wait we did, and I couldn’t do a single thing. Even though my mind was screaming ‘Do something!!!’….I could not. Doing something is not always the right thing. Sometimes waiting IS the thing to 'do'.

There have been times that I answered that screaming from within to ‘do something’…only to wish I HAD just waited. The ‘something’ that I did….it was the wrong thing.

I complain to God quite often about his in-action. I want him to ‘DO something!!’

I want Him to do something about so many things.

I want Him to fix what I messed up.
I want Him to intervene in wrong behavior.
I want Him to stop corruption.
I want Him to withhold blessings from people I consider not worthy.
I want Him to punish those I judge guilty.
I want Him to make my life easier.

And as I sit this morning reflecting on Psalm 119 again, and I type out those words, I am so thankful that He isn’t at my command. I’d just mess some more stuff up and make my life far from easier. He is God. And I am not.


“Make sure that everything goes well with me….Help me to understand what is right….
LORD, it's time for you to act. People are breaking your law……I love your commands…I consider all of your rules to be right. So I hate every path that sinners take….”
(Psalm 119:22-28)

I identify with the Psalmist…. ‘me, me, me..’

I again and again go to Him to ask that everything go right with me. Usually after I have failed at taking care of it myself. I pray the hardest when it is a matter I am powerless to ‘do something’ about.

I too consider His rules to be right. He is the Creator. He engineered, designed, and produced all that is reality to me. Even my self.

I too detest the path of sin. I know it from choosing it. I learned from experience that He commands for very good reasons.

And I too say to Him, “Lord, ‘do something!!’…people are breaking Your law !!”


And I find myself so thankful that He waits for HIS time and only then does He ‘do something’.

I can be assured that it will be the best time and the best thing.

Storm...

Storm… Webster calls it a rushing violent wind. A violent assault on a fortified place.

As I sit and watch a hurricane headed toward the east coast of the United States, threatening New York City, I wonder why we convince ourselves that we are fortified against a breeze, much less a storm.

It’s a lie.

“You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above..”(the words of Jesus as recorded in John 19:11)

We have no power that is not granted to us by The Hand that controls the nature He created.

I fully understand there is a science of air flow, pressures, cold and hot atmospheres….all of these things contribute to how these storms form and move. But that does not change the fact that it is God's science, He is The Scientist !

“For He spoke and stirred up a tempest that lifted high the waves.
They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths; in their peril their courage melted away.
They reeled and staggered like drunken men; they were at their wits' end.
Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble…..” (Psalm 107:25-28)

Then...THEN they cried out to Him. Isn't that always the way it is with us?

Did He send this hurricane? Good question.

I know one thing without question. He can stop or control it. He speaks and it is. Period.

Will He? Obviously not. It is happening.

What will the response be?

It is during times of threat beyond our capacity to control that we historically turn to Him.

My prayer is for safety, especially for those I love. But I also pray that some person who has never really turned to Him, never felt a real need for Him…would seek Him in a new, more real, more honest, and more complete way than ever before.

“ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”(Jeremiah 29:13)


I pray that this storm will be used by God to prepare people for a new beginning, with HIM at the center. When He is center, the eye of any storm has no power to threaten us, can never take away the calm and peace of a heart inhabited by His Spirit.

Hallelujah.

Metal...

Metal… What kind of metal are you made of?

When I was younger, I remember older people talking about someone’s character and use that phrase. ‘We’ll see what kind of metal he/she is made of’.

When the fire gets hot and the testing comes….you do indeed find out what kind of metal you are made of.

I don’t know a lot about metal working. I know that a new iron skillet is awful when it’s new…it needs to be heated and oiled, ‘seasoned’, before it is useful for cooking.

I know that silver has to be heated so that the ‘dross’ comes to the surface and is removed, leaving the silver pure and beautiful.

This morning as I continue my reading of Psalm 119, I come to this…


“All the wicked of the earth you discard like dross; therefore I love your statutes.
My flesh trembles in fear of you; I stand in awe of your laws.” (v. 119,120)

Dross is discarded.

I reflect back on my life and I can see times of heated testing, and can be thankful for those very painful times. Now. Certainly not then. Refining is not pleasant. But it is necessary.

My God is holy and perfect. Everything and every one else is just simply not. We fall so far short of perfection, and we are so incapable of fixing that problem.

I too find myself in awe of His law, of His perfection. I too tremble when I see my imperfect sinful self compared to His holiness.


“Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed.
Uphold me, and I will be delivered.” (v. 16,17)

He is the only hope I have. His upholding me is my only chance of deliverance. “You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word.” (v. 114)

Dark...

Dark… Walking around in the dark is dangerous. You can veer off of where you intend to walk. You never know what is there…could be a hole, something to trip over, a snake in the grass…..


It is wise to use a light. When you have light, you dispel darkness….you are able to see.

Scripture uses the concept of light/darkness often. As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, I come to one of my favorite verses. “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” (v. 105)

God’s Word, what He has said, is the light that reveals the dangers we encounter. When we use His Light, we are able to see those things and escape harm. We can see where we need to walk, avoid falling into a pit, tripping up, falling and getting hurt. We can avoid the snake lying ready to strike…..

And he is there.

Are you able to see?

I confess with the psalm writer. “I keep putting my life in danger.” And I purpose that
“I won't forget to obey your law.”(v.109)

What God says, He has very good reason for. There is a snake…

Instructions...

Instructions… Do you read them first?

I admit it, I usually don’t. I arrogantly assume I will know how. But I will also confess…most of the time I end up going to the instructions.

We have been given instructions. How to live has instructions. How to have relationships, how to conduct business, how to deal with conflict, how to care for our bodies, maintain health, on and on and on the list goes… Instructions.

But we never have to read them.

Putting together something without using the instructions can be done. Sometimes we can get it put together pretty good. Other times it comes out all wrong. Sometimes it can be corrected. Other times we’ve damaged it in some way that leaves it warped and beyond repair.

So it is with our lives. We can opt to live it without going by the instructions, and sometimes get by without much damage.

But life is not an entertainment center. Regardless of how you try to make it one. And living it ignoring the instructions will eventually prove that fact. And eventually, it will be far from entertaining…

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, I read these phrases… “Your commands make me wiser” (v.98) “ I have more insight..”(v.99) “I have more understanding..”(v.100)
“I gain understanding from your precepts.”(v.104)

Following the directions, (obedience),…. brings about wisdom. Knowledge alone doesn’t make us wise….only the application of knowledge (obedience).

Reading the directions is useless unless you put the entertainment center together like it says.

Father, help me to “..keep my feet from every evil path so that I might obey your word.”(v.101) Help me to remember and to believe, that what You say, You say for very good reasons, always and only for my greater good.

It is what it is....

It is what it is… I heard that phrase used the first time by my daughter-in-law.

She used it in the context of discussing something she didn’t like, but could not change. I’ve used the phrase many times myself since hearing it from her. Sometimes a bit flippantly, I admit. I am prone to excuse myself from situations without really putting forth the effort to bring about any change.

This morning as I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, I discover this in scripture ! “For ever, O LORD, thy word is settled in heaven.” (vs. 89)

It is what It is. What God says, IS. His Word is spoken and settled. Not one single act of denial or rebellion changes that fact.

The problem is, it’s not settled on earth. Jesus prayed for that to come about, and taught His disciples to pray in that way. “Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, on earth, as it is in heaven.” (Luke 11:2)

Like Eve, there is still a tree of knowledge that I can choose to eat from. Every moment of every day, I am faced with decisions and choices. I walk around that tree and examine the fruit, often hearing the enemy lies and sometimes falling for his deceptions. Every waking moment it is my place to settle it. My will, or His?

It is settled in heaven. It is spoken to me, here on earth.

How will I settle the matter today?

Father, “Your laws continue to this very day“(vs.91) Help me to “never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life”(vs.93) “I've learned that everything has its limits. But your commands are perfect. They are always there when I need them” (vs.96) Your Word….. It is what It is, forever. Let it be settled in my heart and manifested in my life. Today and every day…

Life....

Life… We have a heartbeat, we breathe, we move around…and we call it life.

We say ‘live it up!’ and do all sorts of things thinking that’s what we are doing….living it up. Yet the search is never ending. Where does it end….

I continue my study of Psalm 119 and identify with David’s words in verse 82. “My eyes grow tired looking for what you have promised”

I know what that feels like. Searching for that contentment, fulfillment, pleasure, purpose…call it what you like. It is endless....

Doing the do’s and not doing the don’ts. It is exhausting…

David also has the key in this section of his psalm.

“According to Your steadfast love give life to me; then I will keep the testimony of Your mouth” (Ps. 119:88 AMP)

Without being granted spiritual life from our Creator, we have a heartbeat, we breathe, we move around….and we wear ourselves out in efforts to find what He offers to provide.

Without the life that He in His steadfast love gives, we will never know how shallow and empty our so-called lives are. And we will never ever be able to line our lives up with a holy God and His Word.

Thank you that You have given life to me. Thank you Father for the power of Your Spirit, that enables me to follow You. “All your commands are trustworthy..”(vs.86) I want to simply believe what You say, and accept the help that you provide to me thru Your Spirit.

Addiction....

Addiction… It is rampant in our culture. Think you are immune?

You don’t have to have a drug problem to be an addict. It doesn’t have to be alcohol…or cigarettes, although those are some common ones.

I am addicted to caffeine. I like coffee, tea, cola, chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, and chocolate.

While I don’t share the addiction to television, I fear I am addicted to my computer and cell phone.

I don’t have any addiction to drugs, neither prescription ones or illegal ones. I don’t frequent porn sites, and I am not a gambler.

The reason I can say most of that however, is not because of some special thing about myself. I have just stayed clear of those things, choosing instead not to take the chance on having a problem or becoming an addict.

I have seen addiction. I have seen its destruction. I have heard the justifications for them, the excuses, the blame-laying. But addictions aren’t anyone else’s fault. The circumstances may not be our personal choice, but our response to the situation is.

An addiction can be anything. When we desire a thing so much that we will do anything necessary to get it…that is an addiction.

And an addiction is idolatry. The addiction has become god.

“Do not run after other gods until your sandals are worn out and your throat is dry. But you said, 'It's no use! I love those gods. I must go after them.” (Jer. 2:25)


We go after all kinds of things. Compromising all kinds of things. Then all those things end up bringing us harm. The very things we have pursued and sacrificed our character and principles for become the opposite of what we were seeking. Instead of blessing us, they becomes a curse.

“….when you are in trouble, you say, "Come and save us!' So where are the gods you made for yourselves? Let them come when you are in trouble!” (Jer. 2:17,18)

When the curse comes down on our head, we have no choice but to see the truth. The addictions in our lives bring nothing but trouble and heartache.

Praise God that His desire to restore us never changes.

"Return to me. I will heal you.”(Jer. 3:22)

Hallelujah.

Understand...

Understand… Do you? Can you? How…..??

In reflecting on the next section of Psalm 119 I keep coming back to this one phrase from verse 73. “..give me understanding, that I may learn thy commandments.”

How is it that we come to ‘understand’? I can think of only these two ways…

Logic.

Experience.

When God issues a command, sometimes I fully understand why.

He says ‘don’t murder’ and I understand that if I murder, I have overstepped my own choices and enforced my will over another person, I am choosing FOR them…. to die, even if they choose to live.

That is wrong. It is not my choice. And wrong on many other levels.

God has said lots of ‘do’s and ‘do not’s that I understand with the logic that He has created in us.

Other things He has said, I have come to understand the same way Eve did. I found out for myself. Experience is a good teacher. I could list hundreds of lessons I’ve learned the hard way.

From all those hard lessons, I want most to learn and remember one thing… When God says something, there is a very good reason for it. I don’t have to understand it with my logic. I don’t have to experience it to know for sure. I can just take Him at His Word.

The Message puts that phrase very well. “… breathe Your wisdom over me so I can understand You”

He has done that for me time and time again. Given me His wisdom. “I can see now, GOD, that your decisions are right.” (vs.75)

He is right every single time about every single thing.

Logic or no logic.

Experience or no experience.

Lord, Help me not to choose to experience. Especially those things that Your directions intend for me to avoid. Help me to learn from Eve’s mistake and not to make the same ones. I want to simply trust, simply obey. Forgive me for depending on my own logic. It is so flawed.

“May my heart be without blame as I follow your orders. Then I won't be put to shame.”(vs.80)

Before...

Before… I was thinner, before. I had less wrinkles, before. I had more years ahead of me, before. Before today, I was younger….

On this day of my birth 56 years ago, I come to the section of verses 65-72 in my study of Psalm 119 . This passage speaks so much to me personally today, both in encouragement, and in reprimand. Some much too personal to share in an open forum….


I pray with David this morning, “LORD, be good to me as you have promised.
Increase my knowledge and give me good sense, because I believe in your commands…”

Good sense…. Notice how that phrase is followed with ‘because’and connected to more of the sentence? Where does good sense come from? Certainly not years…not necessarily !

One of the phrases you may hear me say is ‘young and ignorant’. The younger we are, the less life experiences we have, therefore…ignorance. You just can NOT know what you do not know.

Each year that passes, I again reflect on how ignorant I am….recognizing again just how little I know and understand.

God HAS blessed me with knowledge and understanding, for I know and understand so much more than I did at one time.

Yet as I grow older I am faced with the reality of how powerless we really are, how utterly helpless to control any single thing except our OWN choices. And those are difficult…


I believe the wisdom that age brings is this very thing…being wise enough to know how ignorant you really are.

I have many flaws, many wrong thoughts, many wrong motive. I have made many wrong choices. I have caused suffering, and I have suffered.

I regret causing pain. And while I do not like pain, the suffering I have personally experienced has brought me much good. “Before I went through suffering, I went down the wrong path. But now I obey your word…….It was good for me to suffer. That's what helped me to understand your orders. ” (vs.67,71)

How thankful I am for His forgiveness, and that He doesn’t leave me to my own resources.

Father, help me to follow Your way with every part of me….nothing held back, never in my own effort, but always and only depending on You to orchestrate my life. Help me trust You more completely.

Lifestyle...

Lifestyle… I recall they made a television show about the lifestyles of the ‘rich and famous’….

I’m not rich and famous, so I don’t have a lifestyle like was portrayed on that show. Our house is fairly small and quite plain. But it is ours. We don’t have those fancy cars, but ours are dependable and comfortable.

Then again, what is the measuring stick for fancy? Pricetag? Seems in our culture, we measure most everything by it’s price tag…

I am not famous, then again, I am important to the God of the universe, so important that He came down to rescue me.

I am not rich, then again, I have never known hunger, never been without clothing, never without a home and safe transportation.

Maybe I am rich and famous after all….



This morning, as I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, I am drawn to verse 59.

“I have thought about the way I live……”

It is a good thing to honestly reflect on the way we live.

Honestly….oh boy, that’s the kicker. It is not easy to be honest with ourselves, it is tempting and so easy to rationalize our wrong attitudes and decisions.

After all, our own heart will trick us….scripture warns that it is deceitful. (Jer.17:9) (…so ‘following your heart’ isn’t such a good idea always!)

How do I live?

Do I put others needs before my own? Whose rules of engagement do I follow? Do I make up the rules to suit myself, making them up as I go, to benefit me?

Who/what determines how I use the money I have? Do I spend my money to bless others or only myself? Do I use my money to manipulate? Do I put my own price tags on? Do I use my money in effort to pay off my other bad behavior?


“….I have decided to follow your covenant laws.” (Ps.119:59b)

Lord God help me to let You be the boss today. YOU be the Commander in chief, YOU be the decision maker, and help me to bend my stubborn prideful will to Yours. Your way is always right and best. I have learned that so painfully, and forget it so easily….

Horrified...

Horrified…. I was warned that I would be. I was…

Yesterday I made it my business to find out what all the hoopla is about a certain reality show. I don’t watch much television programming, especially the craze of reality shows, I already have enough reality to suit me thank- you-very-much. Besides, it should really be called exaggerated reality. Surely people don’t really live and act like that….

Or do they?

I am far from perfect. So very far.. But God help me to never accept the flaws, help me to continue to be a better person, more like You. Especially help me to never embrace the flaws, never allow me to celebrate the imperfections….allow me no joy in that.

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119, verse 53 from the next section stood spoke to me in my horrified state…. “Horror hath taken hold upon me because of the wicked that forsake thy law.”

What little I saw was offensive to me, but that’s not the deal.

The deal is that so many people live an absolute Godless life. They revel in it. And have no idea how miserable they really are…

It reminds me of the years I suffered before having surgery to remove diseased female organs. I had absolutely no idea how sick I was, how awful I felt all the time, because it was my normal. I didn’t know anything else…ever. When it was removed and I began to get healthier, I was horrified that I suffered so much for so long. (Thank You God for hysterectomies!)

People without God have no idea how sick they are. And tragically, the symptoms of sin sickness lead to an eternal death.

People are without God simply because they choose to not know Him. And He is the most amazing, awesome Person….

He knows every thing…has every thing…can do every thing…

Why are there so many people who are not the least bit interested?


“….. people have turned away from your law. No matter where I live, I sing about your orders. LORD, during the night I remember who you are. That's why I keep your law.
I have really done my best to obey your rules.” (Psalm 119:53-56NIrV)



I want always to remember Who You are. Help me that no matter where I am I will remember Your Presence with me. You see and hear every thought, every word, every act. And You want only the best for me. Always and only the very best….

Then....

Then…. Webster says, ‘next in order of time’ . Reading that definition, I think of that cliché’ ‘First things first’..…

So often we get last things first.

Reflecting on verses 41-48 of Psalm 119, I am impressed with the order that should be in place in our lives. Knowing and understanding the love of God is paramount. THAT is the first thing….and sadly, I think there are a whole lot of people who don’t have a clue about the love of our Creator.

God’s love, His promises, the salvation He provides, then the ‘then’….

“May your unfailing love come to me, LORD, your salvation, according to your promise;
then I can answer anyone who taunts me, for I trust in your word. (Psalm 119:41-42)

I am convinced that once we are secure in the love of God, trusting completely that what He says is always and only good and best, our will changes, our ‘want-to’ changes…

It makes absolutely no sense in the world’s way of thinking, but the free-est freedom we can experience is obedience to God.

Again I pray with David…I pray that I put first things first. Always…


“Let your love, GOD, shape my life with salvation, exactly as you promised;
THEN, I'll be able to stand up to mockery because I trusted your Word….your commandments are what I depend on.

I'll guard with my life what you've revealed to me…And I'll stride freely through wide open spaces as I look for your truth and your wisdom; Then I'll tell the world what I find, speak out boldly in public, unembarrassed.

I cherish your commandments--oh, how I love them!--
relishing every fragment of your counsel.” (Ps. 119:41-48 The Message)

First things first…..

THEN……

Priorities...

Priorities… It is so easy to get them wrong. Why do we so often put value on something worthless…

Reflecting on the fifth section of Psalm 119, I am drawn to verse 37, “Turn my eyes away from things that are worthless….keep me alive as You have promised.”

It is difficult to keep priorities in order. It is easy to be deceived and believe a lie about the worth of some ‘thing’.

We mistakenly think that in ‘things’ we secure ourselves somehow.…then the enemy comes with accusations, pointing out the mistakes and the foolishness, urging us in some new direction where he tells us that security might be found.

The enemy of our souls would have us continue to seek fulfillment and life down those empty paths he points out. Paths that take us in the opposite direction of God and true life.

In the words of this Psalm, David prays for divine perspective and divine restraint.

Tonight, I also pray for those.

I pray that my eyes do not look upon worthless things and believe them to have more value than they do.

I pray that the habits and manners of my life do not divert or detour me from the life God intends for me.

Father, I pray that in YOUR way, You will give me life, and empower me to see the richness of it. And I thank You for the magnificent wealth of my now….

Worn out...

Worn out… Tired. Old and tired….

I say it jokingly almost daily….that I’m old and tired. It becomes more true all the time !

Reflecting on verses 25-32 of Psalm 119, I am drawn to verse 28... “My sadness has worn me out. Give me strength as you have promised.”

On nights like this when sleep leaves too soon, I am left to be awake with my thoughts, and my mind is sometimes assaulted by those nasty flaming arrows of the Accuser. Liar that he is… ‘You should have…’ ‘You could have…’ ‘You didn’t…’ ‘You’ll never…’

My sadness wears me out. Father, give me strength as You have promised.


I recognize them sooner that I once did, but the accusations and lies of the enemy still sting.

Praise God I do recognize them, and that I have learned that although ‘.. I do live in the world…. I don't fight my battles the way the people of the world do. The weapons I fight with are not the weapons the world uses. In fact, it is just the opposite. My weapons have the power of God to destroy the camps of the enemy. I destroy every claim and every reason that keeps people from knowing God. I keep every thought under control in order to make it obey Christ. (2Cor. 10:3-5 NIrV)


“I have chosen to be faithful to you. I put my trust in your laws.” (Ps. 119:30NIrV)


“I'll run the course you lay out for me if you'll just show me how”
(Psalm 119:32 The Message)

And He will….

“I have put myself under God's mighty hand….I turn all my worries over to Him. He cares about me….. He always gives me all the grace I need. So I will only have to suffer for a little while. Then God Himself will build me up again. He will make me strong and steady…” (1Peter 5:6,10NIrV personalized for me, by me)

Hallelujah.

Truth...

Truth… There is absolute truth. You might believe a devil’s lie, you might be deceived, you may question it…but nothing changes truth. Who gets to define what truth it?…..

God. Absolutely.

It has been demonstrated to humanity that we are subject to believing lies, prone to try to over-rule truth, making it what we decide it should be. But all those efforts are useless…and thinking we have prevailed in it will eventually be obvious to us. Painfully obvious. We do well to admit our foolishness and rebellion sooner rather than later….

In my study of Psalm 119, in the third section of 8 verses, I am drawn to verse 18.…

“Open my eyes so that I can see the wonderful truths in your law.”

Eve was deceived and believed a lie. I do not want to be like my mother Eve.


“Your covenant laws are my delight. They give me wise advice.”(verse 24) Truth is hard sometimes. Truth about myself is often very hard. And very ugly… certainly not delightful.

I am thankful to have come to know Jesus well enough that even when He shows me hard ugly things, I hear Him speak with a Voice of love and not condemnation.

I know that He is not mean and nasty…I know that what He says IS true, and that He wants only what is good and better for me.

But I do not forget that what He says is truth. Whether I like it, or whether I don’t. Whether I choose to make my decisions accordingly, or whether I try to re-define it.

What He says, IS.

Absolutely.

Lord, open my eyes and make me see the wisdom of what you say. Help me to see the folly of ignoring or refusing truth…..

Pure...

Pure…Webster says unmixed. Separated from every other thing…

What is pure….

and more importantly, who is pure? Are you?…..


I tried. And although I don’t have some of the stains of impurity that somebody else may have, there are stains.

The second section of 8 verses in Psalm 119 address the issue of personal purity.

“How can a young person keep his life pure?….By living in keeping with Your word.

I trust in You with all my heart. Don't let me wander away from Your commands. I have hidden Your word in my heart so that I won't sin against You.

LORD, I give praise to You. Teach me Your orders. With my lips I talk about all of the decisions You have made.

Following Your covenant laws gives me joy just as great riches give joy to others.

I spend time thinking about Your rules. I consider how You want me to live.
I take delight in Your orders. I won't fail to obey Your word.”
(Psalm 119:9-16NIrV)

Purity is important to God. He calls us to be pure. And at the same time, He knows that since the catastrophe of the garden, it is impossible. Impossible without His intervention.

ONLY by His Word can a young person (OR an old person) have a pure life. Only by knowing WHAT He has said can we act on it and DO what He has said.

There is power in the Words uttered from His Mouth, power in the Word that is so readily available to us in written form. But it won’t leap off the page by itself. We still have that same liberty of choosing.

“Who can say, "I have kept my heart pure; I am clean and without sin"? (Proverbs 20:9)

Certainly not me.

Praise God that He also said, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1John 1:9)


Choose today to spend time thinking about what He has said

Regret...

Regret… Remember as a child, while playing some game, you could call for a ‘do-over’ when something went wrong? Wouldn’t it be great if we could ‘do-over’ those things in our adult lives that we regret?

I’m reflecting on the first 8 verses of the longest chapter in the Bible, Psalm 119. Here it is from The Message version. I have personalized it.

“I am blessed when I stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by GOD. I am blessed when I follow His directions, doing my best to find Him.
That's right--not going off on my own; but walking straight along the road He set.

You, GOD, prescribed the right way to live; now You expect us to live it.

Oh, that my steps might be steady, keeping to the course You set; Then I'd never have any regrets in comparing my life with Your counsel.

I thank You for speaking straight from Your heart; I learn the pattern of Your righteous ways.

I'm going to do what You tell me to do; don't ever walk off and leave me.”


There are many things I regret. A number of them are not things I did that I wish I had not…but things I did not do, things I did poorly, effort I did not put forth.

Some of the things I regret are the impulses and reactions that were birthed out of my own fear and insecurity. My lack of faith…

Living without regret is only possible one way…keeping our steps on the course that is set…walking in ‘The Way’…comparing our lives to His.

It is just simply fact… God designed. God created. Trying to manipulate what He has engineered and use it in a way He never intended just causes problems. And regret.

Each morning, I make an effort to submit my will to His. Again. ‘I’m going to do what YOU tell me to do….’

I am so encouraged to find the rest of that sentence this morning….’don’t ever walk off and leave me.’ And I am comforted even more to remember the very words of my Savior, Jesus the Christ….

“…you can be sure that I am always with you, to the very end." (Matt.28:20)

He IS doing it over…..“You have started living a new life. It is being made new so that what you know has the Creator's likeness.” (Col 3:10)

Hallelujah.

Necessessity..

Necessessity…… What is on your list of necessary things? Vehicle? Computer? Cell phone?

What IS necessary really? Certainly not those things.

We have to have food. And water.

I’ve been praying for rain for a couple weeks, ending my request with ‘in Your time’. I know that God knows how long it has been since raindrops have fallen on my head. (…and on my yard.)

Perhaps I was being a bit pious when I added that phrase to my prayer. I did not expect Him to wait this long. I expected a ‘yes’ to my prayer by now… Since it has not come, I struggle now with really submitting to His time.

Last night, as I held the water hose in my hand, pouring out water onto parched plants and flowers, I was complaining again to God about my desire for water to fall from the sky. My complaint was answered with ‘…look how available water is to you !’

No, He hasn’t sent rain yet, but He has provided the necessary water for me, and even an abundance to pour out on plants that aren’t necessary… flowers aren’t the food that goes on my table. (…and I also have more than the necessary food supply required.)

My necessity of water is readily available. But in this relatively small matter, my faith is challenged and stretched. How sad… I hear Jesus’ words in Luke 12…

“Connie, consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you Connie, O you of little faith!” (personalized by me, FOR me)



“He split the rocks in the desert and gave them water as abundant as the seas;
He brought streams out of a rocky crag and made water flow down like rivers.
But they continued to sin against Him, rebelling in the desert against the Most High.
They willfully put God to the test by demanding the food they craved. They spoke against God saying, "Can God put food on a table in the desert?” (Ps. 78: 15-19NIrV)



Lord forgive me for such mumbling and complaining. I must sound just like your people in the wilderness with Moses. And thank You for the abundance of water and food that are so readily available to me.

Hell.....

Hell….it’s a hot topic. (Pun intended.)

There seems to be a stir in the Christian community about the reality of hell. There have been books written, some prominent teachers speaking against it’s reality. I don’t know why we are so shocked….most of us have lived our lives like it doesn’t exist….

The reality of hell I suppose is important, yet I don’t spend a lot of time trying to convince people of it, and even less personal time thinking about it. But, there was a long period of my life that I did, and I considered it just the less attractive of the two choice.

There was a time that heaven didn’t lure me. I didn’t really yearn to live there eternally. God was there. And He was scary.

But the devil was in hell, and he was scarier. Plus….it was hot and painful there. (I pause to praise Him right now, thank You Lord, for that is no longer true.)

I don’t think about hell much now, and I realize that I don’t try to convince folks they need to find ‘the way’ to stay out of it. (…and there is only one way.)

I do think about our Creator Father a lot, and I do try to convince folks to come to know Him. Not just an ‘out’ for hell, but because of Who He is. He is I AM…

Maybe I need to revisit my thoughts about hell. Maybe people need to be freshly warned about its reality and finality.

Jesus spoke of hell many times. “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.” (Matt. 10:28) Obviously, it is real, and it is NOT good, it is NOT where He will be…..

For me, that is all I need to know, I don’t want a closer look, don’t really care for more information…. Just thankful for a way of escape. (Again, I pause to praise Him and thank Him for salvation…)

Then again, I’ve already heard many a hell-fire-and-brimstone sermon in my youth. Maybe I would never love my Father as I do, had I not been forced to look into the reality of the fires of hell.

“Fear-of-GOD is a school in skilled living-- first you learn humility, then you experience glory.”(Prov. 15:33 The Message) "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.”(Prov. 9:10) Fear kept me from doing many unwise things, and brought about true knowledge of and love for The Holy One.

What about you? What do you know about our God? Where do you want to live out eternity? Do you really want to live in His Presence when this realm of life is over? Or do you just not like the other choice? If that be the case, you have chosen…God help you.

There have always been two choices…good and evil. And God has always allowed us to choose. “…as for me …..I will serve the LORD." (Josh. 24:15 personalized by me)

Both choices are very real. They will one day be final. Eternally….

Exhausted....

Exhausted… Someone I love is really exhausted tonight. Too many long hot hours, not enough sleep. I pray that he makes it safely back home at the end of the work shift, safely to his bed for a long and thorough time of rest.

I’ll likely be exhausted myself in a few hours. Sleep seems to elude me tonight. I slept soundly until 2:00. Tried twice to snuggle down and drift off again. Not happening…

I’ve considered how exhausted many people have been these last weeks, those who work all day in this unusually hot summer. Exhausted. They must be so very exhausted. The heat seems to suck all of the energy from a person.

There is satisfaction in being tired from a good day’s work. The reward we see in what we have accomplished (and the paycheck we cash!)

I have been really tired a lot of times. But I’ve never known exhaustion like the spiritual exhaustion I struggled with for years. I worked and worked, yet seemed to get no where. I wanted to quit, but felt obligated to keep on and on…trying, harder and harder.

I did quit eventually. I just said, Lord, I can’t do it. I am sorry. But I just can’t ‘do’ all ‘do’s and I end up ‘doing’ the ‘don’t’s. So….I give up.

It was the turning point in my life.

And I’m in good company with the dilemma I was in.


“What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise.

So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary.

But I need something more!

For if I know the law but still can't keep it…

and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don't have what it takes.

I can will it, but I can't do it.

I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway.

My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions.

Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. It happens so regularly that it's predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up.

I truly delight in God's commands, but it's pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.

I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn't that the real question?

The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.”

(The apostle Paul’s words, Romans 7:16-25 from The Message)



"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me--watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." (The words of Jesus, Matt. 11:28-30 from The Message)


Hallelujah. I found that peace ‘which passeth all understanding’ (Phil. 4:7)

Thank You Lord…..