Try.....

Try…. Over and over. Again and again.

I get tired of trying. Don’t you?

It is so tempting to just throw down the towel and say ‘forget it’.

Sometimes, I just don’t want to care anymore…just wish I could NOT care.

But I have prayed so many times for God to use me. I have asked Him to help me submit myself to Him, that He could do His work thru me, ministering to others.

As I continue to reflect on Psalm 119 I read “ My zeal wears me out, for my enemies ignore your words.” (v. 139)

My zeal. There lies the problem…

It is not about me…. I know this. I have had to re-take this course over and over, again and again. I am not the one who gets a single thing accomplished in another person’s life. Ever.

He asks me to follow. Not navigate or drive….


"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am.

Don't run from suffering; embrace it.

Follow me and I'll show you how.

Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to saving yourself, your true self.

What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?
What could you ever trade your soul for?

"If any of you are embarrassed over me and the way I'm leading you when you get around your fickle and unfocused friends, know that you'll be an even greater embarrassment to the Son of Man when he arrives in all the splendor of God, his Father, with an army of the holy angels.

( The words of Jesus, Mark 8:34-38 The Message)

Lord Jesus, forgive me as I again get out of the driver’s seat.