Acting in obedience to what God instructs is rarely ANYthing other than difficult.
Making a decision to follow Christ seems only to make life more difficult.
Choosing to do what HE says is right is much more difficult than just reacting to our life situations in whatever way we feel at the moment.
Often I have repeated this to Jesus. "This is hard !!" "Who can do this?" (John 6:60)
"I can"....He whispers.
I will not leave you...." (John 14:17-18)